Unhappy

Whenever I see and hear or put it this way, know about it,

I'LL GET REALLY UNHAPPY ABOUT IT....

YES!! I'm posessive.. I admit on this issue..

I hate it when someone else claims it to be theirs... I know I'm selfish but I cant help it...

I'm really unhappy about it yet I cant do anything cause I simply am also in this situation...

Forget it.... I cant do anything except to blog here...

~endz....

It has really been some time since I last updated this blog...

Just wanted to let YOU get some updates from me...

I'm currently working 2 jobs... and also studying at the same time.. So, I'm only like free on Sunday? Making it my only rest day too. I miss you guys. ~really.. SORRY for not being able to meet up often or attend gatherings... I will try my very best to meet up with you all ok... really SORRY about it...

I'm quite stressed up recently due to many many factors and problems arising. What can I say... hmmmm... I'm really going through a tough period ... ~~?

Although I know there are many other people who are suffering more and stuff but... ... when you are actually also going through the same stress and emotional torture, is not so easy to just brush it off and say " there are people out there who are suffering more"... simply cause you are experiencing the thing now...

Is not that I do not care anymore. BUT what can I do? Join in the commotion and then help ? then make myself feel worse? The words that came out of your mouth simply made me think that you do not know what emotional struggle I'm and have went through... I'm upset but ? trying to respect what you say and think, I listen and kept quietly and accept it because I know you meant well. I'm trapped in between... your rational thoughts, feelings, views.... the others talks, views and eyesight and my very own feelings.... In reality, I have to keep quiet because, I DEPENDING ON YOU and... I need  a break from all the expectations and eyesights... I need it..

In the end....I'm all alone...

Ok!!! seriously, i dunno what's wrong with my Chat box... any idea???

Haha... i know i have not been updating for a damn damn damn long time la... BUT!! i got upload pics...It's always like that.. Is like i will upload the pic, then after that i will be either too lazy to write the blog or just simply busy... so ya.. drag till now when i just want to do sth abt it despite still being very busy now... Haha...

Ok... Let me start with the recent one.. the more significant will be.... :

       ~ My Birthday, ~Darling's Birthday, Angel Birthday... ....

Let me start with My 19th Birthday First that is on the 29 June !!!!

Firstly.... is celebration with JASMINE!!! 1st friend to wish and celebrate with me lor....!!!

OK... she brought me to Paris International to have dinner, after that we went to Loof for a drink.

At Paris is damn funny la... after our meal, i ask her where was my birthday cake. then i said alot thinking that she didnt get for me... haha... I think almost all my goody friends knows i have this thinking that BIRTHDAY CAKE is very important on Birthday... haha... so i kp nagging abt it when i THOUGHT jas didnt get... THen...

She took the plastic bag she have been carrying when she meet me.. and.... silence...

Taking out sth... Which i kp asking " cake ar cake ar???"

The Cake she brought for me!!! So unique rite!!!

 Fix the candle!!! ~ kept looking at her since the cake was placed in front 

                                                            of me... haha... ~surprised!!

 Basically, the cake is TOO unique to put a candle so ya... this is the best.... haha...

Unique ME!!! Unique CAke!!! ~haha (~shy)

~ US!!!!!!!!!! ( photo taken a very interesting waiter... ask me lots of q abt my phone.. haha)

I think i didnt take pic when we were at Loof... so no pic on that...

Jas!!! Thanx Thanx Thanx... Really thank you... ~glad to see u after HALF a year ar... haha...

Will the next meeting up be half a year later again??? ~haha...

NEXT UP!!! is .... Celebration with DARLING....

Darling actually booked me from 3pm onwards on that day... so actuall i have free slot before that...

Thought of meeting up my friends BUT wenting and ziqi dun want to take that slot... so NVM lor... the worst thing is... The slot was then spend on PROJECTS!!! ~haiz... nvm.. is over...

OK... so I was not told of anything... except... from 3pm onwards, my time is for him.. haha...

On that day itself, darling's mum also bought me cake... and celebrated for me too!!! ~touched~ Thank YOU!!

Ok.... look weird but nvm... haha:)

So after that its time for our TIME.. we headed out a little late as some problem occur for my project... so we left home around 4pm...

On the way, I kept asking... where are we going?? What are we doing... and blah blah.. U know Curiousity rite... haha... But he kept secret la... and being the HONEST darling that he has always been, he gave me a nod when i got the MRT we are alighting correctly... And from there, i actualy knew where we were going... IS... the DHL BALLON at BUGIS!!!

BAD news is that, the operator say that weather is bad and so on so cannot sit... ~HAiz... Dar was very sad.. but we took some pic there too...

        ME!!!                      DAR DAR!!                 The Balloon....:(

So when darling 1st plan is ruined, we went to shop, play and have our own fun... hee...

At around 6 plus, we headed to orchard for the 2nd Plan.. which is DInner... I decided and to ask or guess anything.. coz dun want to spoil his plan anymore...

SO.. He brought me to.... SUN AND MOON at Wheelock...

He book these special area for the couples... is like sofa seats with cushion and stuff... ambience was REALLY GREAT!!! I love it!!! and the food esp the sushi is NICE!!!

Let me try to recall to introduce it...:

 Taken with the SUN and Moon logo or sth of sort...

 I forgot which is which but one is Rainbow Roll and the other is Sake HarasuTeriyaki Roll... BOTH are YUMMY!!!!!

Then....        

Myself... Having a taste of Red Breeze... I think is   watermelon mix with sth gassy...i think is ok...

Kaki Bacon Yaki... I think oyster with bacon.. IS ULtra nice too!!!

See that hourglass.... so basically, when the waiter serve this, they will turn the hourglass and then all you nd to do is to wait for it to finish and then remove it and eat... quite an interesting way... haha...

Followed by.... DESSERT...

This was well knows... according to Darling's research.... really touched by his effort...

So... the well known TOFU CHEESE CAKE...!!

I think is is very interesting... :)

Then lastly....

Chocolate Parfait.... Consist of 3 layer... The last layer is conflakes... is nice... worth a try too!!!

Ok... after eating so much... I'm actually not very full... but also not hungry is just right... so... we called for the bill... Amounted to $136.90 ( inclusive of Svc Charge and GST which adds up to be about $20 la)... haha...

Overall... I'm really happy... Thank you darling.. as for the rest of the grateful words and blah.. shall only be told to him... hee...~...

Ok... next is the celebration with Wen Ting and Zi qi...

We met up for dinner at Hooked...

The both of them actually... made cupcakes for me!!!

There is 19 of them and managed to spot my name???

~haha... This really... Hmmmm... Thank you ladies...

We had a great time catching up with my usual argument with wenting... haha...

so here... the 3 of us:

PADI PADI....

Wen Ting

Me:)

After dinner, we head to wenting hse for Mahjong... hmmmm asked Jas to join us...

Really touched la... Jas came down just to entertain me... touched lor!!! THANK YOU JAS>....

That is about it for my birthday...

I would like to thanx... Cyndy, Siew Boon and many many more who have wished me, brought presents for me and even celebrated for me with a meal.... Thank you.... Really Thank YOU.....

ok... will post this first... nd to rest... later then blog on others... ~hee:)

Love,

Doris

No Excuses...

There are some things that cannot be excused....

There are some things that cannot be forgiven....

No matter what was said... fault is there... existing all along..

People always say "what done is done"...

But... at the end, looking back ... asked.." what was not done to prevent the "done"...

No matter what i bear some responsibility for the outcome...

If not for my wildfullness maybe it will be better...

No excuses will be accepted as No matter what i'm indirectly or maybe directly accountable for.

Sorry is NOT the cure anymore... it will never be...

BUt still.. what else can be done apart from saying... "sorry"....

I blame myself for being hot-tempered...

I blame myself for being unreasonable...

I blame myself for not able to do what i aim to...

I blame myself for making you go through the routine with me...

I blame myself for everything simply cause I'm guilty for all that was done, happened...

All that remains is the word... " sorry...."...

With much regret....

Doris

Have been influenced by darling lately...

Finished the whole series of death note comic.. is REALLY very very different from the movie..

And is actually MUCH MUCH MUCH BETTER than the movie...

But darling say due to time constraint for the mvie and blah blah blah... so ya... resulted in the poor story plot compared to the comic..

Anyway.. for all i care.. L is damn intelligent la... Though Kira is bad but... he is DAMN good looking..~haha

Went to comic connection on sat and saw death note poster and being not rational again...

I wanted to get it and darling bought it for me and help me put up in my room!!! ~haha...

Here u go... Before wrapping..

For those that only watch the movie, u will not know Mello and Near... so well.. if u wanna know go and read!! haha.. honestly, is really nice!!!

Darling at work!!! - wrap wrap wrap!!

The final Product...

~heeee:)... Now i'm watching Bleach and Naruto Animation..

The comic shall only read when i have the extra extra extra time... haha... look at colour stuff better ma.. hee..

Ok... off to see Ichigo!!! ~weeeee